Friends before....

Playing~"6, 8, 12"-Brian McKnight

I have a situation. My closet buddy has been staying with me for about a week. A tree knocked down his power line. I have someone who is trying to "chill" with me tomorrow (spend the night). He is going to lose it when he realize my homie is staying too. He is not going to stay the night and I WANT him to. What does a brother do? Mind you, something like this just happen involving the same friend.

I really like you, but the sex is bad

I was visiting a friend and we talked about this person they liked. They enjoyed the person quite a bit, but the guy is bad in bed. " I've tried to teach him, but he's just bad. He's just not fluid with sex. He doesn't know how to move and flow with you". The guy was knocked down a few knotches, because he was bad in bed. It made me think, how important is sex to a relationship? Could sex make or break a relationship? If everything else is in place, could you end a relationship because of bad sex? What would you do in this situation? Also, how important is sex to you in a relationship? The story just made me think

Forbidden Fruit

I had my suspicion when we first met, but I chose to dismiss it.
However, you gave me every sign of a curious church boy.
You gave me confirmation by talking about ex-girlfriends and getting married.
You further confirmed it by calling me at 1 am two days later.
I had become your forbidden fruit.
Everything in your fiber want to resist, but you were drawn away and enticed by your own lust.
A lust that you wish you didn't have.
Lust that would make you jump in your car and drive over here to satisfy it.
Satisfaction it typically what you received.
You like the pleasure, pain, and taste of it.
It makes you moan and say words you typically wouldn't say
After lust has been conceived it kills you with guilt and shame
You shun your lust and thoughts on how it's drawn to me.

Update

Playing~"The 1"-Janet Jackson

I've moved from the amusement park. I missed the space already, but I'm happy to have left the most deplorable management staff. A ran into a few maintenance issues with my new places, but they are being fixed as I type. Comcast is coming to fix the mess they left. Okay, let's get to the stuff you guys came to read about (Pride, BIG, and my family visiting).

Pride was uneventful for me. I went to one club (trademark). I was underwhelmed by this experience. A lot of people, but nothing to make note of. I've had much more fun with just the atliens being in the building. I didn't tell you guys about this experience I had about a month ago. It was real hot, but I swear that negro was rollin' (on x). speaking of, people will shock you. I found out that an associate and a friend of my roll. Well, my friend decided to try it because his friend got some in the club. I was like WTF?!

He has finally been given a name...BIG. We went on a date on Friday Night. He just kept staring at me, which was kinda cute. He didn't want the date to end. However, I had friends to meet, so I was trying to keep it moving. We reconnected on Sunday. I finally saw Dark Knight. It was good, but people really hyped it up. During the movie I discovered what his name should be...lol. I was on my best behavior, but he wasn't trying to coporate. He wanted to leave the movie. I was like "ahh...no!" Anyway, we did end up back at his place, because he wanted to "talk". We didn't talk for too long. For the presumptious ones, I didn't give it up. Well, there was no penetration. Actually, I didn't have to do much at all. I was more of a buffet. I felt some kinda way about going that far (it's only been 3 weeks). I've never went that far with a dude before. I felt some of it was out of obligation. Trying to show affection and progression, but I didn't intend for it to go that far. I'm trying to make sure I don't project that on him, because I'm an adult. I'm also trying to muddle through my issues, his issues, and our issues. He is quite demanding of my time, energy, body, etc. I don't like that! Don't try to take me further than I'm ready to go. Tuesday, we reconnected.

My family came helped me move, cooked, and kept me busy. I love my family. They are so more upfront than me. I've soften over the years. I ditched them Friday for BIG and Trademark. Saturday we moved and I had to take to get some money, so she could shop (her poor boyfriend). I took her to Lenox on Saturday and she was overwhelmed. "Where the real niggas at?!" I had to explain to her what was going on in the city. She still took awhile to adjust. She also had questions about Slick. I said "ask him and why is it important to you"? My mother was in her typical mode (supervisor). She is seeing more of a different side of me, which caued her to throw the side eye at me. We didn't have a chance to discuss my sexuality. She did make it clear she wanted grandkids and stuff.

Anyway, that sums up everything...how did your weekend pan out?

Sex is on my mind

Before I send this text. F**k I sent the text (an innocent good night). Okay, before I answer this phone (quickly ignored the phone call). I'm going to type this post, because I'm horny as hell and this well give me enough time to calm down. I'm not even sleepy, so I can't sleep it off. Masturbation would be an insult to the passion I feel. D**n, your body up against my body on the dance floor really got me going. I backed it up too much, I felt too much, and it felt too good. Plus, you are fine! I'm going to take a hot shower and chill out. I know my limits, so I'm not answering that darn phone. It will make matters worse. I need to sleep it's 4:10am...who is thinking about sex this freakin' early? Your a** was like a dream. It was so..umph! OMG...let me get in this shower, because I'm still thinking about you. This was so random...read the real post before this one.

let's talk about sex

Playing~"Kissing You"-Faith

I was talking to a friend like 3 weeks ago. He felt like it's better for him to be single, because of some of his sexual desires. They like some different stuff sexual and they don't think most people will accept it or be into. Later that day I thought is sex that important? It's so important that someone would choose to be single and enjoy themselves sexually?! How important is sex to you guys? I've been talking to friends for the past weeks about it. One friend said "50 percent" and another said 25%. One friend said "I don't have to like you to have sex with you." I've heard of people staying in some unfavorable situation, because the sex was good. Idunno...what's your thoughts?

This is an intense feeling

Playing~"Whatever"-Jill Scott

I don't know what's been going on with me lately. I've been having these extremely intense sexual feelings. It's more than being horny. The energy is so passionate, emotional, spiritual, and sexual. Lord, this is a bit much...whew! Nobody can serve up sex better than these ladies.






Pray my strength in the Lord...lol

What type of stunts are you trying to pull

Playing~"lick"-Joi

I decided to bring the new year in at church. I want to give the Lord thanks for maintaining me through all of the ups and downs of 2007. We had quite the time trying to get into the sanctuary. The sermon was honest and very encouraging. No rhyming themes to tickle our emotions, but honesty about what God can do and what we allow him to do.

I was going to a social after church. I almost decided not to go, but Slick(formerly known as roomie) gave me the lecture of never living. If it goes sour, we're out. The social was a little more crunk than we expected, but I decided to stay. We socialize with a few people, I get on the card table, and start acting foolish on a game of spade. We lost because my partner went to biding all high and I lost focus somewhere around the 3rd hand.

As the night progressed I realized the conversations were changing and people start buddying up. Debatably the most attractive guy (dreads) in there was kinda pressing on me. Others kinda flirted, but he went in. I thought "about darn time somebody recognize all of this greatness". Everyone was really trying to get me to drink "loosen up". My response was, "I'm loose". Then, out rolls the foolishness. The host (an older guy, we'll call him duality) decided to call a new associate of mine up stairs and I'm like "something is up". Then, he summons another associate (Plan B) up and I'm like this my que to get out of here. I touch Slick to let him know we need to get our a** out of here. He is looking confused until I prepare to leave he caught on. I cordially dismiss myself and dreads was like you can't leave. He trying to talk me into staying and another guy who was nearby hands is all on my a**. At that moment, I realized this is some type of sex party and I need to get my a** out of here. We get to the car, I tell slick what was taking place. He's yelling "WHAT?! WAIT, NOBODY TRIED TO SEX ME. I'M PISSED!!!!"

Note: School Slick on non-verbal communication

Playing~"April's Kiss"-Rahsaan Patterson

I'm in a bad way

I'm so horny!!! This is not good! I absolutely refuse to have sex. Masturbating is not an alternative. I'm writing this little entry to give myself sometime to calm down and come up with a plan. The plan: I'm going to clean my house and if that doesn't work I'll wash clothes. Actually, I'll sleep it off, then do whatever else is necessary. I'm going to blame it on this hot weather that came out of nowhere. I'm sure I can sleep it off.