Thursday, November 30, 2006

Simple question, but complex answer

What do you do when.....

you get what you fantasized about, but it is nothing like you thought it would be?

Monday, November 27, 2006

You don't know me

Playing~"When the saints go to worship" -Benita Washington

I don't know, maybe, I'm a private person or something, but I really am bashful, coy, and easily embrassed when asked about very personal matters with people I really don't know. My co-workers were on my behind today at the christmas party. They wanted to know the juice. What do you do? Are you single? Are you dating? What is your fantasy? That last question was a bit much. I'm not going to answer this question. One lady tried to ever so slightly encourage a conversation about my sexuality. Now she almost got it, but I decided not to draw more attention to it (everyone or most of them missed that). Some people think I'm elusive, but I disagree. I share what I feel comfortable with and if I don't feel comfortable. I don't share. One lady shared her fantasy and guess what.....her fantasy was shared across four tables. I was like that is why I don't share. I answered all the question except the last one. Nobody believed my answers. They thought I was playing innoncent. REALLY! I'm not doing anything. There has not been any sex and there is none planned. I'm new to the area, so I don't know people to run the streets with. Plus, I don't do that anyway. I'm rather boring....I guess.

Good news! People at my job think very highly of me. Seniors were meeting and I was recommended for a project and I accepted. It came down to me another more season manager and I won. Bad news! I'm still not feeling the profession, so I don't plan to be with them 4 months from now.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Random Thoughts

10 Random thoughts

  • Ugly Betty is funny.
  • Support the (Red) campaign
  • Grey's anatomy is still the best!
  • I joined myspace and I don't get the hype .
  • Give me your myspace name and I'll add you
  • Going to college and getting a terrible job is not good
  • The Democrats are back in power...what are they going to do with it?
  • I finally went to a church I enjoyed.
  • Why am I single?

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Something is not right

Playing "resentment" Jazmin

I don't know what's going on with me, but I'm seeking validation, which is not my style. I'm always the one telling my friends to validate themselves..."forget what everyone else thinks" "You don't need anyone to confirm what you already know". Well, I need to take my own advice. My recent move is making me insecure. Questioning things that always worked. My personality, my looks, etc... by now I would at least met a few friends and had someone express interest. Well, one or two have expressed interest, but they were scary to be honest. One asian lady tries to take me in the bathroom and some guy tried to hint that he wanted to hang out. Part of this is my fault. I don't really go out, but I really don't know where to go. I'm not the most inviting, but I do speak and that scarys people. They stare you up and down, then you speak the look at the floor.