I'm still here (random info)

Playing~"Bad Habit"-Maxwell

• This season change is causing me to feel the relationship bug..sigh.
• I hate to admit that! arrgghh
• You feel it too...don't front
• Good luck with that
• You think we are in a financial recession? Try dating
• However, a** and/or d*ck is plentiful in my city.
  
• People are willing to give their bodies as oppose to their minds...go figure
• I ain't mad...those hormones will get you!
• Speaking of, I've been kicking hormones a** for 3 months!
• Let me stop frontin', it's been more like a heavy weight 12 round fight
• *sigh* me and those rules of mine
• When I do f*#&....I'm going stupid. I want to hear some f*#king screaming, moaning, cussing, etc.
  
• whew...see what happens
  
• Friends have been a great outlet
  
• However, all they do is encourage me to f*&#
• The good boy in me will not die!!
• d*mn him
• I decided to do something about my career. I was tired of hearing myself complain.
• I'm studying for the GMAT. Well, I don't know if I should call it that.... I'm slacking so hard. I test in less than a month. smh
  
• I brought a new car.
• His name is G.
• What have you been up to?
  

Yet another Dear John

Playing~"Drained"-Latoya Luckett (this song came on and it's fits the post...oh the irony)

I remember thinking, "did I speak this man into my life". You came correct no hhiisssing, no sending your friend, no crazy comment to catch my attention, no sexual innuedo and no game. You came with questions and I provided answers. You were so sure and confident. I was beyond impressed. I later found out it took you two weeks to build up the courage to approach me (lol). You were ready to jump in the water head first. I was only ready to swirl my feet around. Unfortunately, this particular issue caused me to break things off abrutly. Uncertain of my decision, our relationship became this ball of ambiguity. You were not delighted about this lack of clearity, but you dealt with it. After all, you just wanted to keep me around. Eventually, you started receiving benefits that made it worth it. My sex game went to another level! I don't know what I was doing before, but sex became an experience! However, a year later I was still guarded and provided no terms or commitments to our future. I just couldn't let my guards down. I also had some concerns, but I knew I couldn't change them. You were so ready to please; I couldn't get you to admit to my concerns. Sadly, one night your passion for me boiled over and things quickly went left. I realized that your desire for me could put both of us in danger. I haven't spoken to you since; we both knew that night was the last night of us.

I'm certain someone can identify

I love this chick of Def Poetry Jam

hhhmmm..Maxwell

This video was enough to make me post something. I was already feeling something stirring in my spirit...lol.



The man is sick!

What about your friends?

While I'm sitting in the window listening to the US Marshalls question my friend I'm truly amazed at what people can do when you let them into your world. I knew something was up with this dude after the second time we hung out. However, he was my friend's really good friend, so I decided to override my hesitation. I decided to just keep my guards up. Everything is cool. Everywhere we go people know him (he had a pretty good porn career(?)). He's crazy, keeps you laughing and is free hearted. Time goes on and my friend makes a comment about the guy and I let all of my opinions flow. Long story short this negro is a stunt queen! He has warrants everywhere. To varying degree all of us have been affected by his craziness. You have to be so careful about who you allow in your world. Thankfully I kept him at a distance, so I didn't get effect directly. If so, I would have tore that @** out of the frame (we almost came to blows at Sizzle). The good thing about me and my crew we always get the last laugh. Pose for the camera *click* *click* .