Playing~"Is she the reason"-Destiny's Child
At 2:50am, I feel empty. I feel closed in...trapped even. I have a promising career, but I hate the job, but I'm definitely earning the title of "Golden Boy" in the company. However, I feel underpaid and over worked. I swear my job is full of delayed potential. I want things to materialize NOW! I need to feel like my hardwork for the pass year means something. I guess, I should be satisfied with my two promotions, but they were all vertical moves in the position I hate, so that didn't do much for me. I can't wait until next year when I'm promoted to the job I really want. For Christ sake, I need more money. I feel broke and I'm nowhere near it, but I just don't have the discretionary income I desire to have. I'm a saveaholic
I'm disappointed in my social interaction here. I have nothing that makes this place home. I'm not connected to anything here. I need to involve myself in something. I'm not even going to delve into my need to for some intimacy. Damn my friends for not being available! They're great at giving me a reality check. They let me know I'm trending just fine and I should keep my expectation of myself reasonable. It's times like this that I can't find contentment anywhere nor in any words. I have to come to a resolve within myself. I'm a strong believer in creating your own experiencing and I feel constrained. Whew, I feel a little better now. I feel a need to read. Do you know of any good books? I need to pray and read or something...oh I'm in a funky mood. Trying to make sense of everything...finding my truth on this journey
Discontented
Playing~"When the battle is over"-Benita Washington (this heffa sings her butt off)
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6 comments:
Breathe... and back to that warm fuzzy place. Everything in its time and treat yourself right. That means use some of that spare time and energy on a class, gym, trip, etc. No one is on their deathbed talking about, "I should've worked more..."
ahhh yes, a promising career but hating the job. I think I may be able to relate! under paid and over worked, also familiar! We aren't that much so different!
I wanna listen, you should post some links, I love battles when then they are over! :-) and especially if this is the song that I think it is...
Be cool and do that praying thing you were thinking about... might shed some light onwhatyou need to do...
Keep ya head held high! This season in your life will pass, then you can see the fruits of your labor...by the way I just ran to my cd book to put in Benita Washington and now I'm going to be slain for the rest of the night LOL!!!
Wow man...I can truly say I've been there before but trust and believe goods things come to those who wait. Everything that you are going through now, will only make you appreciate your promotion that much more.
And it sounds like it helped to just vent?
I can relate. Stay strong!
You need a hug for real... just think look at today as being a stepping stone toward next year.
Umm... books. What is your favorite genre? I am currently reading "Friends, Lovers, & Roses" by V.B. Clay. Check it out at Amazon.com
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