Sunday, December 30, 2007


I literally can't sleep at night......all I think about is making love.

Friday, December 28, 2007

More like 2 degrees of seperation

I guess it's true. We all are connected. My Cuddle Buddy(CB) started pushing the envelope like 3-weeks ago. I began to avoid his whether direct comments, becuase I didn't want to be rude or hurt his feelings. However, I was still seen as nasty when I brushed comments off. Maybe, I may have made their efforts come across as juvenile. I guess my CB decided to move on, which is fine. It ws become a bit of a yawn fest anyway. We talked today and he released what he thought would be an atomic bomb. I've beening seeing this other guy, I really like him, blah, blah. I'm like "good for you". How did you meet, blah, blah. He brags on the guy. He wanted me to be jealous, but I was like "no really this is a good thing". Then, he gives details on his new "friend". I'm like OMG...I think I know the "love of your life" (me and my darn sacrasm). Well, what do you know it's him (the one who tried to hide that he was gay). It's cute, because I'm all but sure dude was checking for me a few months ago. CB calls, he gets on the phone, he's laughing, and I'm thinking no big deal. I later text him to tease him. He acts like he still doesn't like boys. I'm blown...get the f*** out of here.

So, I'm being hit on at work. Maybe, I should call it sexual harassment. This boy is saying in a little girly voice "could you do this for me daddy?" Grabbing me "don't leave me [insert some warm and fuzzy name]. I'm like YUCK! Get away...your not attractive and your antics make you even more unattractive. What should I do?

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I don't know if I agree

I hope everyone had a merry Christmas.

A situation arose between a friend of mine and his ex. I didn't particularly agree with his thought process, so I'm getting feedback. It was a terrible breakup, so he felt like everyone who was attached to him shouldn't deal with the ex at all. Granted, they did do a lot of crazy stuff to him, but my thought process is they did it to you not to me. Anyway, he finds out one of his best friends have been keeping contacting with the ex. They agreed he wouldn't continue to talk to the ex, but he kept talking to him anyway. Anyway, my friends finds out that his friend has been telling his ex everything. He goes off. The ex shows up to the club they're at and that caused quite the scene. He refuses to talk to the friend and the ex. What are your thoughts? I thought the whole thing was a bit childish. I also thought you cannot tell your friends whom they can talk to. Anyway, your thoughts

Monday, December 17, 2007


Nature vs. Nurture?

Is it okay for your boyfriend to be with another woman, but not with another man?

Who's getting that Mary album today?

The abstinence thing is going....(well, that's a statement)

I told my friends about my "encounter" w/ my cuddle buddy. One of my friends were done with me and the others gave me mixed response.

Do you speak to bloggers when you see them in public? I saw two (valentino and pimusique)

playing~"smoking cigarettes"-tweet

yeah, I don't have that much to say.

Monday, December 10, 2007


Playing~"fade away"-Mary J. Blige

I decided I was going to abstain from all things sexual (no relations, no masturbation, no porn, etc). I was doing pretty good until this freakin' weekend. Nothing happen, but it definitely was a struggle. It was like I was sensitive to my own touch...lord have mercy! I'm going on week 3, let's see how it goes. If today is any's going to be a tough week.

I didn't call the girl. I don't plan on it. You know, I'm feeling girls less and less.

I'm not 100% confident these days. I think this new position is causing me to doubt myself. Not because it's hard, but because you feel the need to prove yourself. I'm not feeling that hot, either. To sum it all up, I'm feeling very average right now.

I really need to find something I'm passionate about. I'm so over my current situation (despite the promotion).

I really want something real. Even if it doesn't last, we could see each other years from now and know we left an indelible mark in each other lives.

Friday, December 07, 2007

life and two lessons learned

Playing~"Stars"-Rahsaan Patterson (Wine and Spirit album)

This girl who I was interested in when I first moved her found me recently and she wanted to reconnect (funny, she didn't when I wanted to). Anyway, I haven't called and today marks a week. A year ago I would have jumped at the opportunity, but now, not so much. I'm a little indifferent and I feel awkward because in the pass few months (~4) I've entertained a few guys (~2). I definitely wouldn't want to mix things. What are your thoughts?

I received a promotion and a raise. The raise was boo boo, so I fought for it. It still is not where I should be, but it's better than what I had.

It's cute when someone who had a slight advantage on you in a friend/relationship and the tables turn. They become more open than you ever were. The bad part is, your pretty much over them by this time...sorry.

No one is neutral in your life. Either they make a deposit or they make a withdrawal

You cannot rewind time. It's sounds simply, but really! You cannot rewind it. So cherish your moments, live in the moment whether it's pain or joy. Don't let the person you like walk pass you one more time without saying anything. You only live once

Put It In

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Kelly's single "work" It's really late and I'm kinda over, but I have to show my girl some love

Monday, December 03, 2007


Playing~"do you remember me"-Jill Scott

My friend and I were talking about the duality of being a human. At best, you are two people. You may call one your lower nature or crazy side, but everyone has two personalities to varying degrees. What are yours?

Saturday, December 01, 2007

World's AIDS Day

Playing~"Lesson Learned"-Alicia Keys ft. John M.

What are you doing Today?