It starts now

I keep putting decisions off. Out of fear of the unknown or the hope for something better. I Try to plan for all of life's contingencies. Thus, I miss out on a lot of opportunities. I don't know how long it's going to take for me to realize the life I'm planning for is already in progress. It will not start when I get a new job, move, or meet someone

* I deleted the Dorion post. I wouldn't want someone to post my photos. Plus, a mutual friend said he's really upset about.

Quasi Relationships

Playing~"houtatlantavegas"-JoJo ft. Drake (This chick can really sing)

I'm a constant observer and I'm noticing a lot quasi relationship exist in our community. Nobody is really dating anyone. We "talk" to this one. We went on a date with that one. We chat with this one on Facebook. We "mess" with this one. We really like the other dude. If the truth be told, he is not that into us, but we're cute so he keeps us around. Unfortunately, we're doing the same thing to someone else. All this is going on and we are talking about wanting a commitment filled relationship. Do we really want commitment? Do we really understand what a committed relationship requires/looks like?

I like the ideal and the look of a committed relationship. The reality of it is kinda scary. I don't know if I'm emotionally handicap, still finding my way with dating, or scared (probably a mixture of all three). I find it difficult to get into anyone. Thus, I exert very little energy when dealing with anyone. Consequently, they probably feel the same way and the cycle just continues.

Weekend recap

Playing~"She ain't my girl"-Trey Songz ft. Sammie

This weekend I was on a mission to party my @** off and I did.

Friday night was uneventful. I couldn't get people together to go out, so we ended going out to eat.

Saturday:

• Everything was a mess at work on Saturday. I almost went in, but I decided to let my assistant handle it. She was schedule to be there. I'm certain she is going to kill me on sight when I walk in the door today.
  
• Ended up meeting up with friends to shop around for their club outfit. I end up picking up something myself.
• Had lunch with some dudes we met at Sizzle (sidenote: Be cautious of dudes who wear hats all the time. They can look totally different without a hat). They were going to party with us later that night
• We decided to make some punch . OMG....that punch was so good it made the liquor smooth. I had 4 glasses and a water bottle of it on the way to the club. Needless, to say I was crunk than a mfer.
• I danced my a** off. It was ridiculous I almost pulled a table on top of me at one point (lmao). We chilled a little bit after the club

Sunday:

• We went to church. Well, those of us who could get up. The service was decent, but I couldn't get into it too much. I partied too hard the night before.
  
• Decided to meet up at Red Lobster and kick it for a minute.
• Later on after taking a much need nap we made our way to a pool party. We forget about it until a friend called around to see what was going w/ one of his friends.
• There is a new place on Sunday. Club Eros isn't too bad. If you want to party it's not the place, but it gives you that laid back club feel. It's more of a lounge. Plus, cheap cover ($8) and drinks ($5)
  

The little boy in me

An associate of mine ask this question and I found it to be intriguing. Is the little boy I use to be proud of the man I have become? What is your answer