I'm still here (random info)

Playing~"Bad Habit"-Maxwell

• This season change is causing me to feel the relationship bug..sigh.
• I hate to admit that! arrgghh
• You feel it too...don't front
• Good luck with that
• You think we are in a financial recession? Try dating
• However, a** and/or d*ck is plentiful in my city.
  
• People are willing to give their bodies as oppose to their minds...go figure
• I ain't mad...those hormones will get you!
• Speaking of, I've been kicking hormones a** for 3 months!
• Let me stop frontin', it's been more like a heavy weight 12 round fight
• *sigh* me and those rules of mine
• When I do f*#&....I'm going stupid. I want to hear some f*#king screaming, moaning, cussing, etc.
  
• whew...see what happens
  
• Friends have been a great outlet
  
• However, all they do is encourage me to f*&#
• The good boy in me will not die!!
• d*mn him
• I decided to do something about my career. I was tired of hearing myself complain.
• I'm studying for the GMAT. Well, I don't know if I should call it that.... I'm slacking so hard. I test in less than a month. smh
  
• I brought a new car.
• His name is G.
• What have you been up to?
  

I'm certain someone can identify

I love this chick of Def Poetry Jam

hhhmmm..Maxwell

This video was enough to make me post something. I was already feeling something stirring in my spirit...lol.



The man is sick!

What about your friends?

While I'm sitting in the window listening to the US Marshalls question my friend I'm truly amazed at what people can do when you let them into your world. I knew something was up with this dude after the second time we hung out. However, he was my friend's really good friend, so I decided to override my hesitation. I decided to just keep my guards up. Everything is cool. Everywhere we go people know him (he had a pretty good porn career(?)). He's crazy, keeps you laughing and is free hearted. Time goes on and my friend makes a comment about the guy and I let all of my opinions flow. Long story short this negro is a stunt queen! He has warrants everywhere. To varying degree all of us have been affected by his craziness. You have to be so careful about who you allow in your world. Thankfully I kept him at a distance, so I didn't get effect directly. If so, I would have tore that @** out of the frame (we almost came to blows at Sizzle). The good thing about me and my crew we always get the last laugh. Pose for the camera *click* *click* .

This is not a good time for celebs

Between death and nude pictures celebrities are really taking a beating. Well, you can add Terrell Carter to this list. One of the kids decided to expose him and entitled it "revenge". Picture located below:

It starts now

I keep putting decisions off. Out of fear of the unknown or the hope for something better. I Try to plan for all of life's contingencies. Thus, I miss out on a lot of opportunities. I don't know how long it's going to take for me to realize the life I'm planning for is already in progress. It will not start when I get a new job, move, or meet someone

* I deleted the Dorion post. I wouldn't want someone to post my photos. Plus, a mutual friend said he's really upset about.

Weekend recap

Playing~"She ain't my girl"-Trey Songz ft. Sammie

This weekend I was on a mission to party my @** off and I did.

Friday night was uneventful. I couldn't get people together to go out, so we ended going out to eat.

Saturday:

• Everything was a mess at work on Saturday. I almost went in, but I decided to let my assistant handle it. She was schedule to be there. I'm certain she is going to kill me on sight when I walk in the door today.
  
• Ended up meeting up with friends to shop around for their club outfit. I end up picking up something myself.
• Had lunch with some dudes we met at Sizzle (sidenote: Be cautious of dudes who wear hats all the time. They can look totally different without a hat). They were going to party with us later that night
• We decided to make some punch . OMG....that punch was so good it made the liquor smooth. I had 4 glasses and a water bottle of it on the way to the club. Needless, to say I was crunk than a mfer.
• I danced my a** off. It was ridiculous I almost pulled a table on top of me at one point (lmao). We chilled a little bit after the club

Sunday:

• We went to church. Well, those of us who could get up. The service was decent, but I couldn't get into it too much. I partied too hard the night before.
  
• Decided to meet up at Red Lobster and kick it for a minute.
• Later on after taking a much need nap we made our way to a pool party. We forget about it until a friend called around to see what was going w/ one of his friends.
• There is a new place on Sunday. Club Eros isn't too bad. If you want to party it's not the place, but it gives you that laid back club feel. It's more of a lounge. Plus, cheap cover ($8) and drinks ($5)
  

The little boy in me

An associate of mine ask this question and I found it to be intriguing. Is the little boy I use to be proud of the man I have become? What is your answer

You're the sh*t!

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.-Psalms 134v14

This scripture came to mind on my way back from Miami (after all of the debauchery I'm thinking about scriptures..lol. I crack myself up). Our friend gets to Miami and is insecure about everything. We kept reaffirming him during the whole trip. Mind you, this friend typically meets someone everywhere we go. Surprisingly and silent I reaffirmed myself after Friday night. We both were blown after the club. We didn't mack anyone out and no one macked us. We both were like wtf?! All these dude here and I didn't meet anyone. We dropped one of our friends off and went back to park lot pimp. We experienced some interaction there and I ran into a blogger (he has certain style about him that I like).

Fast foward to Sunday night. My friend is macking and getting all night. I'm quite impressed! His self-esteem was through the roof. I was delighted that my friend was on such a high. However, I thought to myself this can't be good. Your esteem being based on people is dangerous. Heck, people will have you like an elevator. Taking you up when they want and bringing you down when they want. Then, that scripture came to mind. Why do we allow people to to increase and decrease our value? If God, himself, tells us that we are the SH*t and everything is where it'suppose to be! Who cares what anyone else thinks

Recap

Playing"Fix my hat"-Lil Wayne

I have some many things that have transpired that could have been a post, but I'll do a random post. All of things aren't related to me directly

• What should you expect after a sexcapade with someone you haven't known very long or establish a real relationship with? If you didn't hear from him again would you feel a certain way?
• Could you date a stripper? If you dated him, could you trust him?
  
• Bottoming for the first time...how was your experience? Did you do it for a special occasion or were you just that turn on by the guy.
  
• Is Dating someone your friend "talk to" for a short period a violation of you guys friendship?
• Is anyone heading out of town for memorial day weekend? Are you working out to make sure your body is in tip top shape? I've given a half butt effort without much progress. If your going to Miami, I'll see you there.
  
• What if you found out one of your closet friends was gay? You tried to confide in them years ago they acted like they couldn't relate. Little did you know they were years ahead of you in the game. Would you call them out?
• Would you feel bad for putting your ace out of your house? You have went beyond your call of duty as a friend more than once when it comes to housing him. Would you think twice about switching your locks after your agree upon exit date?
• Would you look at an associate differently if you found out they did porn
  

Love

Why can't we get some of that sh*t songs are made out of? Anita Baker is making me day dream about how beautiful love can be. This chicks voice is so smooth...sigh

I would not mind having a "good morning"

A lot of things have been going on. A lot to blog about, but I haven't been focused. I do want to drop this eye candy on ya. Can someone tell me when he trimmed down and became even sexier? For my photos http://www.popsugar.com/3097922?page=0,0,4

Playing~"good morning"-John Legend

Church boy

These confused church boys are a mess! I promise to never entertain them again. Gotta run for work, but I had to type this...sigh.

Friends before....

Playing~"6, 8, 12"-Brian McKnight

I have a situation. My closet buddy has been staying with me for about a week. A tree knocked down his power line. I have someone who is trying to "chill" with me tomorrow (spend the night). He is going to lose it when he realize my homie is staying too. He is not going to stay the night and I WANT him to. What does a brother do? Mind you, something like this just happen involving the same friend.

Tell the truth

Playing~"knocks you down"-Keri Hilson ft. Kanye

Why are we so afraid of the truth? Truth is just a fact in our or others life. What is it about the truth that makes us lie?

***sidenote******
I'll be back with a real post. My life has been in such a quasi state; I've been trying to gain understanding. A lot of decisions are before me and I need to make some critical decisions. Those decisions were implied during my last post.

So many things to say now

Playing~"knock you down"-Keri ft. ne-yo & Kanye W.

Work:
This year is has been quite the experience. My company like many others experienced huge lay offs. I wasn't laid off. I fought to keep some of my employees who were displaced. Within in weeks, my boss's boss announces he has been promoted. BIG ISSUE for me! He has guided my career up until this point. Everyone at the job has a love\hate relationship with me because of him. Even though, my results out perform 80% of my peers I'm already catching hell. Now, I'm left with Senior Managers who I don't respect. One who thinks he still a bully in high school. I'm on his committee and I reject his approach (imagine the dynamics). Another who is constantly trying to prove me wrong (80% of the time she has to apologize, because she is wrong). She is my immediate boss! The other two seniors don't have an opinion about anything! Everyone already knows I don't enjoy this job as it is....now this! I had plans on leaving in August, but I need to move that date up!

Social:
My social life has picked up BIG TIME! I reconnected with a college friend and we "came out" to each other, which is the cause of my increased social life. I've been eating out and partying with them for about three weeks. I forgot how much work it is to gain friendship...whew.

Location:
I'm so over my job that I'm willing to move to get out of it. I have a potential job offer in another state. Last year I declined it, because I was just starting to get on the scene in Atlanta. I just had to see what it was all about. The job pays more and I will not have to pay state taxes (that's another increase). I'm just torn, because I'm finally getting a good consistent circle of friends. However, my job doesn't prepare me for what I foresee myself doing in the future. I definitely will choose my career.

Other crap is going on as well, but those are the ones that have my mind going.

Random things
Did Keri Hilson jump out of the box or what
Andre 3000 reveals he is a very attentive lover to Playboy

Okay, enough rambling I should have been getting ready for work 13 mins. ago.

Dating

Playing~"Emergency room"-Rhianna ft. Mario (oh the irony)

I was hanging out with a group of friends. We talked about some of everything and someone brought up dating (of course). We realized all of us were single. All of us are progressive and fairly attractive men. Everyone claim that it's hard to met a quality guy these days. I thought to myself. I'm sure there a bunch of progressive and fairly attractive men sitting around somewhere saying the same thing. The problem is we can never get these people to meet. Where in the heck are they hiding?

random

Playing~"turn off"- Keri

• What did you guys think of Seven Pounds? I wasn't overwhelmed with emotions, which made people think I was cold. Man, he was clearing his conscious.
  
• Why do people pursue you hard and just when you feel like giving them some play they flip the script on you. WTF is that about
• 500,000 people lost their job in December. Can you believe that?
• Am I the only one surprise that Brandy only sold 78k her first week. Sigh
• I have this yearning for more and I can't really explain it
• Things that use to get me going don't really move me now
  
• Have someone ever told you that you were too good for them (does it not say a lot about how they view themselves)
• Believe what people give you upfront. If you don't, you'll regret it.
• I went through the last 3 guys I've encountered over the past 2.5 years and gain a lesson from each.
• Well, I'm not sure what the third was meant to teach. I must not have learned the lesson.
• What do you do when the person you are getting to know has a friend who is hotter and they keep giving you the vibe they want to get to know you? RUN...lol.
• I feel the need to get messed up. Work has been kicking my a**
  

Are you listening?

God speaks to us in unorthodox ways from time to time. A few days ago I was at home trying to watch some of my favorite shows on abc.com. Every time I tried to load the video my computer would freeze. My virus alert would come up letting me know it was blocking the streaming. I kept restarting Explorer and it continue to happen. Then, I decided I need to stop acting like an insane person and try something different. I go to my anti-virus set up and realize my program was set so strict it was blocking the very thing I was trying to enjoy. I disabled that part of the anti-virus program. Then, I went back to explorer and I was able to enjoy watching the show without incident.
The message was simple. At times, we are too guard. So much so, it hinders us from achieving the pleasure we are seeking. Every now and then we have to take down some of those guards, so we whatever joy life could be presenting us. I don't know if this will speak to anyone, but that experience spoke to me. Everyone thinks I'm too self controlled/guarded. God has a funny way of teaching us lesson. He's always speaking/teaching it's up to us to hear/learn. I hope the new year is treating everyone well.

Undecided

Playing~"Gonna Fight"-J. Hud

I'm debating between these three cars. If you were buying a car, which one would you buy?

TSX gives you the most upfront. You don't have to spend additional money for little perks (i.e. heated seats). You do have to pay extra money for the technology package. The TSX is the cheapest of the three.


The IS was my favorite before I test drove the cars. It provides you with the smoothest ride and its the most quiet. However, you have to pay for almost every perk.


The G35 gives you the horse power. It's the most expensive, but it gives you the luxury feel. It's also is the most expensive of the three

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